Sorry to my two (2) RSS Followers
Changing to a different blogging platform. Again. I'm very sorry.
Sorry to my two (2) RSS FollowersAnxiety Dirt Drink
I was sick the past week and that means that I was dehydrated. I usually don't drink coffee when I'm dehydrated, so I had a week-long break. I still drank lots of tea, but the effect is different; we all know that. Anyway, yesterday I woke up feeling exhausted so I had a cheeky little cappucino with a tripple shot of espresso. Big mistake. Anxiety through the roof! I learned my lesson and just had a regular filter coffee.
Anxiety Dirt DrinkBad Forecasts
I generally only get my news from official resources or resources that have done so well with providing accurate information so consistently that I choose to trust them (though, with a grain of salt). One of those resources posted (this morning) that tonight there will likely be another attack with rockets from russia. I know that any forecast like this is essentially meaningless and has a 50/50 chance of being true or false.
Bad ForecastsCoffee Joy
I've had to stop drinking coffee because it was adding fuel to the fire of my anxiety. I hate doing these "responsible" things because while they make my overall life better (less anxiety is always good) they steal little moments of joy from me. Making a V60 coffee when I get up has been my "morning meditation" for several years, and having that yanked out of my life is unpleasant. Even if you press me for an answer now I wouldn't be able to tell you whether the slight decrease in anxiety is …
Coffee JoyCorpo Brain
You spent the first five years trying to get with the plan And the next five years trying to be with your friends again First of all — we're bringing back using lyrics as status messages, cryptic posts, etc. We've cowered under the pressure of "what if it's cringe" for many years, and now it seems like emo is back and so are cryptic lyric posts! Second of all — I spent the past 10 years focused on my career.
Corpo BrainEverything is a bad sign when everything is bad
A couple of people are moving out of the apartment building I live in and it's stressing me out. It means nothing. It means their landlord sucks or it means they found a better place or it means the apartment is too small for them now that they have a kid AND two dogs. But to me it immediately brings back anxious flashbacks of February 2022 when you could kinda tell who was traveling for business and who was traveling because they watch the news and know what's coming.
Everything is a bad sign when everything is badHappy New Year
Here's the energy with which I'm entering 2024:
Happy New YearI Got FL Studio
When I got Ableton Live I said to myself that that would be the last music-related purchase in my life. It has everything I need and more. And yet here I am. I got FL Studio and I've been playing around with it and LOVING it. I think something about the workflow just works for my ADHD brain. You create a bunch of patterns and then throw them around a timeline and call it a song.
I Got FL StudioI've Been Reading
I have been hardcore reading these past couple of months. I went from having read 4 books in 2023 to 14 in the span of 60 days. It started with joining a book club where we were all reading Infinite Jest (that's still in progress), but as I was reading that, I also started reading other (easier) books to keep the momentum going. And then I re-discovered audiobooks. And then I got a library card and had access to more ebooks and audiobooks.
I've Been Readingweeknotes-2024-1
First week of the year was a tough one. It started with some pretty serious bombings from russia aka lack of sleep aka the rest of the week was fucked. Shoutout to the US Patriot air defense systems that helped Ukrainian soldiers shoot down 10/10 hypersonic missiles that russia has long claimed are "absolutely undownable". There's a post I'm going to write eventually (hopefully sooner rather than later) about the need for more US assistance and more pushing for US assistance to Ukraine from …
weeknotes-2024-152 Things I Learned in 2023
Reading still brings me joy Reading together is a much better experience. It makes difficult books easier to stick with. If pen & paper is something I come back to any time I'm overwhelmed, maybe it's best to just stick to pen and paper always Especially if new stationary brings me so much JOY. Social networks are a platform. You'd never choose to stand on an unstable platform IRL, why stand on one online?
52 Things I Learned in 2023blogroll
I follow these blogs! You might want to as well! At the very least, you should at least check them out. https://winnielim.org https://sanlive.com https://maya.land https://maggieappleton.com https://az.id.au https://www.sheafitz.com https://evy.garden/notebook/ https://satyrs.eu/garden/ https://mayaontheinter.net In the future I'll categorize the blogs based on what they're about. Right now there's not enough of them to warrant that.
blogrollGood Journaling Methods
I've been slowly chipping away at a post about how journaling has helped me and the various little "journaling activities" that are actually helpful instead of time-sucking trash. Now I've had to throw that draft away because this video covers nearly all of my tips and adds some that I haven't considered but that I know will for sure work out (for me). Check it out: [youtube.com/watch](https://youtube.com/watch?v=U8RQsJ0Q3Mo)
Good Journaling MethodsI love me a new blog
Lost count of how many I’ve started. This one’s the newest.
I love me a new blogJan 14 Weeknotes (2024)
This week at work was intense, but I've also been doing a lot of "thinking" and "planning" and "brainstorming" for a few creative things I'll be doing on the side as part of my whole "year of winding up/down" yearly theme. Work The company I work at was part of a conference/expo thing, and as the marketing person it was up to me to work on a lot of the creative elements in preparation for it.
Jan 14 Weeknotes (2024)Jan 21 Weeknotes (2024)
It's been a slow week. Basically regrouping from the dificulty of the previous week. But also I put a song up on Spotify/Apple Music and that's a capital "A" Accomplishment for me. Work Now that the conference/event is over, it's time to get back to the "foundational" marketing activities of SEO, writing blog posts, creating various templates for SMM and stuff. Music Put up a track on Spotify and Apple Music.
Jan 21 Weeknotes (2024)My First Song is on Spotify
Hi! My first song is out on Spotify! Listen here. I'm mostly proud that I somehow gathered enough courage to actually share this. Hopefully as I learn more about music I'll be putting out better songs. But TBH this one has grown on me.
My First Song is on SpotifyMy Life in Albums - Shrek OST
The first CD I owned was the Shrek OST. I got it to go along with a boombox that I was gifted. A Philips AZ1575 and MAN I listened to a lot of music on that thing. It had that wheel thing for volume control which was a as close to an iPod as I could get at that time. The Shreck OST was a no-skip collection of music. I had my favorites (Reputation, All Star, Stay Home), but there wasn't a song on there that I'd skip anyway.
My Life in Albums - Shrek OSTStock Effects in Ableton Live
So, uhm, after buying and spending a couple of weeks using FL Studio I am now back on my bullshit (aka using Ableton Live). This video is an amazing resource. It explains all the stock plugins of Ableton Live and took my understanding of the software from, like, a 50% to close to 80%. [youtube.com/watch](https://youtube.com/watch?v=LGU7P-VB07w)
Stock Effects in Ableton LiveIf it was fun to make, I'll probably like it
"This class will probably ruin movies for you." That was the first thing said by my teacher during my first film class in high-school. Basically, creating the habit of analysing (and often "over analysing") movies would ruin them for me. Movies would no longer be something I can just shut my brain off for and enjoy. He was right. Now the only movie I can just "chill and enjoy" is some purposefully dumb comedy or action blockbuster — everything else comes with "
If it was fun to make, I'll probably like itPosting with Visual Studio
I recently discovered (literally not five minutes ago) that it's possible to edit github repositories through a web interface? With all the push/pull/commit bullshit as well? Absolutely incredible.
Posting with Visual StudioiOS Emergency Shortcut
Disclaimer: The built-in iOS "Emergency" functionality is 100x more likely to actually work when you need it to. At best, this shortcut can remove the stressful experience of having to TYPE a message while you're stressed. It does not replace the need to call the police/ambulance/fire people if you are in danger. iOS has built-in SOS functionality. Depending on your phone model[note]iPhone 7 and older: press "home" button 5 times
iOS Emergency ShortcutPointless Art
This is mostly a “note to self” type of post that I hope somebody else might relate to. I had an idea for a small art project. I checked online to see if someone else has done something similar. “Computer says no.” So, I took that idea and made it happen. And it was shit. But it made me feel better. Like, even though the gap between what I had in my head and what I made could be more accurately described as a “chasm”, it felt so good to have an idea and act on …
Pointless ArtHappy New Year
Hey! How's it going? Happy New Year! I mean I know it's been 11 days by now, but just because the calendar flipped doesn't mean my procrastination habits suddenly disappeared. I did feel a motivation boost for the first 4 days of the year (which were, coincidentally, mostly weekends). And I didn't even have any resolutions or goals that I wanted to follow through on. I just felt motivated. If I had the same level of energy and determination for a whole year that I had on that first Monday, I'd …
Happy New YearMy Brain has a Word Limit
For the past couple of weeks I’ve taken note of how long it takes me to get bored of an activity that involves reading. 1000 words. That’s my personal cutoff. 1000 words of a book. 1000 words of a blog post (or two). Even when I’m reading twitter, I’ll get bored after around 1000 words worth of tweets (unless I get to the point where I start seeing tweets I’ve already read, which happens often because I’m a twitter completionist that way).
My Brain has a Word Limit